Behind my camera What I see and what I catch… The theatre is the therapy of the soul and the way to freedom.
I still remember my first day at the university of fine arts. I wanted to be an architect. I was trying to find my classroom and suddenly I find myself in the Acting Class. All the students are cool, relaxed, funny, creative, expressive. I stood by the door and asked if I can come in, and of course the teacher is relaxed, happy, loving. He gave me a sign to come in.
I fell in love in seconds… I lost track of time … I envied every one in this classroom, I saw the light and for the first time in my life I could dream with my eyes open. I saw myself on this small stage performing and asked myself can this be me?
In my school it wasn’t allowed to express ourselves, they were teaching us how to suppress our emotions and how to kill our feelings.
Is it allowed to say what you feel? Is it ok to share personal stories? Is it allowed to cry in front of people? Can I show love?
Catch the moment
That moment when you feel that this is you, catch it, be it, own it. Don’t let your mind trick you by putting blockages and limiting beliefs such as “you are not good enough” or “this is not right “etc…
The first year of Architecture was a total frustration, one because my heart was still in the Acting class and two it was so boring although I was very good and my grades were great .. a part of me was empty…
And then one day, my late mother saw me crying and asked me why are you crying? I told her I don’t know but I’m not happy…
She asked me: what’s your dream Nadine? I told I don’t know I want to be on stage…
Then she said, tomorrow you go and enroll in Acting and forget all about The Architecture.
And I said: But my grades and what will the people say? they will think that I’m not smart that’s why I enrolled in arts..
She told me: You do what it feels right for you and for your heart because the most important gift that nobody can give you is the smile on your face and I want to see you smiling, you are beautiful when you smile.
I wish my mother was still alive, she would have enjoyed my stage performances.
Do what it feels right for you Honor your dreams